Oh Starsky, you're 100% right... I'm not quite there yet... In fact, I'm sure I have a ways to go still... But I'm a lot closer now than I've ever been, and every day, I know that I'll improve.
As for your (probably rhetorical) question... I'm terrible at telling the future, so I have NO idea what I'd do if she decided to come back down the road. I do have faith that it WILL happen at some point... Hell she's currently back with an old flame that she admits always cheated on her, and I know that I'll always be a better option than that :-)
But it truly doesn't matter right now. I've got a lot of life left to live, a lot of live left to give, and a lot of living yet to do... This needs to become just the noise in the background, the motivation to continue improvements, and at the very very least fodder for one hell of a screenplay/novel that I've got in me.
In fact, I've decided that I'm finally ready to be honest enough with myself to start penning it soon... Maybe you will all see it on screen one day...
