Shes been gone a while now. Still talking to me but I know she is seeing him.
We have had some heated moments but I have resigned myself to the fact that the only way I can win this marathon is slow and steady and be the good guy and father when I see her.
She has a house rental that she cant really afford, is never there and always at her mothers with our kids when its her week. Its almost laughable. The best thing is....she still isn't happy!
Seeing as I cant do anything about the other man, Im hoping if I let her get on with it, it will all die its own death anyway.
She had day surgery on Monday and asked me to take her. Well, I had offered a while back anyway. She said "there was not anyone else she would rather have go with her".
I dont see any short term reconciliation, at least not whilst she is still somewhat angry with me and also still in fantasy land over the OM. In fact, at this point I dont expect anything. It would be a nice bonus down the line, but Im starting to be more comfortable with myself and my own life. Im making new friends and getting out a lot more.
Bottom line, life goes on. I would rather it be with her but I am coming to terms with life without her.
