GroceryKartMan gave me some good advice awhile back, I would like to pass it on to you. Just BE A GOOD DUDE. IMO, the way you start to change is when you have those thoughts that you put into that text, you stop. Think them, but do not express them. Push them aside, deal with them by screaming or something. Next thing you know those things won't bother you.
As far as people telling you to move on, well really what do they know. You don't just wake up one morning and say today is the day. Regardless of wether or not you are trying to make positive changes to yourself, you'll be ready when your ready. I have a friend that has been S for a year and he tells me he wishes he wouldn't have wasted all this time hoping it would work out. Well he still holds so much anger and resentment because he didn't take the proper steps to deal with the breakdown of his marriage. To address his own issues. So really the waste of time is that he still has to deal with his anger and resentment. He is a year behind the curve. Personally I like the path of DB.
Also, would it be fair to someone else to be in a relationship when you still want to reconcile? Would it be fair to someone else if it was the same old suckerpunch, making the same mistakes?
Me 37/W 32 S 5 D 4 ILYBNILWY 5/12 Sep 8/12 Starting to find myself 11/12 on
