No, not at all. I am becoming the man I want to be. I AM working towards making my changes a permanent part of me. I know all too well that I am not there. I'm still doing the work.
The part that I am having a hard time with is the wondering, stressing, worrying about wether my family will reunite. I know perfectly well that I will be okay no matter what. However, will my D be okay in a split home, will our friends still be okay with both of us? What about our families? What about our finances. Those are the things I am holding on to, not just for myself, for everyone involved. When I am detached to the point where those things don't affect my emotions, something is probably drastically wrong.
