It's one of those weeks when it just feels like it's all falling apart again. I need to do something different. I feel like the dynamics between us have gotten worse since I started pulling back a lot. In some ways I think he really feels like he could loose me so he is lashing out and again trying to make everything my fault.
Now today, I will admit, that I probably shouldn't have said what I said, but again, he took things farther than it needed to go. I asked him how he liked his new phone. He says the face time is really cool, that he tried it with his sister last night. So my reply was 'I have it too. Maybe you should have tried it with your daughter...' Because seriously, if you didn't live at home and just got a new phone that could do that, who would you call first?! Anyway, he said it was late...then said he forgot he had it...then only remembered I had it when he was talking with her. Whatever the reason, I more so wanted to remind him that he can do that with his D as well. He then sent an entire screen full of again, how I've never admitted my guilt, even back to the alledged 'BF'(haven't we beat that to death enough!) I don't listen, or take any guilt from what happened inour marriage, that he has owned up to his problems. It goes on and on.
I will be the first to admit that I am sarcastic. While I can control it some - I've always been that way. He didn't use to mind. Now it's a big deal.
I do need to get out of the victim mind set though and stop letting his rants effect me so much. Back to the book to try to change some things.
