Sorry you are not getting the responses that you would have expected.
My thought is that this is the right forum for you, although we dont get the same amount of traffic as newcomers.
Advina's sich is similar to yours. Actually so was mine, early on.
You might try looking into low energy type crisis, and depression. MLC is super depression, that can manifest itself in different ways. Sometimes high energy as in very typical MLC with the red corvette, and girls. Other times it is easier to SEE the depression, and there is almost no high energy replay. In that case it usually lasts a much longer time. Or at least that is my experience.
My suggestion is to keep posting and learning and you need to focus on yourself.
