Divorce was final today. I got on facebook and she had already changed status to "divorced" and took "I have a wonderful husband..." out of her about section.
Good gawd it hurts much more than I anticipated.
yes, I believe she's still in a mental state from her medicine but I can't help but to feel that it's still "her"
her friends and a few family still say she's not the same and acting strangely.
It's so hard to think about and deal with it, to cope. hard to think of her as "not my wife" any longer. How I have no business wondering how many condoms she has in her purse... who she's going out with, what she's doing after work... who she's talking to etc.
I have had a very VERY bad day today, and I even thought seriously about admitting myself into one of those psych clinics. I have had some very bad thoughts today...
I guess I'll come back and post once in a while... when i have something substantial to talk about.
M: 36/W: 28 T 11yrs / M 7yrs /1x 3yo D Sept: W Cheated w/ teen, BDrop. W Beast. Hated me. Oct: 18 (M license)W Asked for D Oct: 31 (Anniverary)W Paid Lawyer Nov1st: Both moved.
