No word yet from job opportunity. Coworker really didn't talk much to me today. He was wearing a tie (normally doesn't) so I'm guessing he had the 1st interview today.
I left work early b/c S2 had an annual follow up at the hospital to check on his kidney. In utero, one kidney did not develop. Essentially W and I received the good news that the good kidney has grown extra to compensate for the other one. The other one has totally involuted / disintegrated which means no surgery.
During / on the drive back W made several interesting comments. 1. "Is it okay that I'm choosing not to leave on w/e's?". My response, sure it's your choice. 2. "I was anxious about spending today with you. You've seemed more distant the past few days". Me: Sorry, didn't intend to be. 3. "I can't imagine divorcing you.". 4. A few other general positives eg. You (I) have changed a lot the past several months. She was reminiscing about a Cancun vacation we took years ago.
She did ask what i wanted. I said honestly don't know. W seemed surprised / disappointed that I didn't automatically say yes. I told her that if we were to try to work on things again it has to be different. Not half ass like the first time. She agreed. So now to figure out what I want for me, including can I truly work through the A (anger, etc). For now, I'm going to go lift weights and then eat dinner. Maybe accept W's invite to watch Castle (DVR'd).
