Tori, can you plan something for after your lunch with your H that you know will be supportive and nourishing for you? Can you see someone you really trust and enjoy or do something for you?
It might be nice to have something planned that you know will be nurturing for you after what is bound to be an emotional and probably taxing time with your H--no matter how it goes.
I can really understand how ambivalent you feel about seeing him.
I like VeryGrateful's advice.
Me: 51 H: 52 T: 23 yrs M: 19 yrs S18, D16, S14 (special needs) PA: 2003/2004 Piecing: 2004 on Suspect H had EA: 8/2012-12/2012