Confused compass?

[JJAC2005]

Reason I still have hope...it took her 2 years to ask for a separation, it took another 6mo from the asking for the D for the papers to get filed, after filing she still wanted to see each other and continue family stuff and did so until one month after D day.
She harbors a lot of anger and resentment toward what amount to be "emotional affairs" that I was either clueless about or refused to admit.
After she closed the door and said she wanted to move on from the relationship there were a few little signs....or at least in my mind that there were still feelings....but no real communication was taking place as I wanted to give her time and space.
I made a few texts the first month, one phone call (that didn't go well).
I received a very emotional call from S12 mid Nov. and reached out to the W to talk about it, again that didn't go well and she then decided to block and future contact between the children and me.
I left it until a week before Christmas '12, at which time I asked permssion to see the kids for a little bit just to give them a card a small gift and to visit for a bit, and was totally denied. Then she turned around and dropped off a tin of her home made candies and cookies (our family tradition) on Christmas eve after I had gone to work. Then after the first of the year I went over to her place completely unannounced, to ask if there would be any chance of her changing her mind about letting the kids see me, or if we could have a talk over coffee so that I could read her a letter that I written her. At first she was a bit angry with me, but still couldn’t totally conceal a grin here or there from some of my comments, ie. Like when I mentioned that the cookies were really good and thank you. To which she replied that they were for my mother, and I said right, and she grinned know how I felt about many of the treats we use to make. Now when I asked to the possibilities of having coffee to discuss a few things and read the letter, she said “no” and her explanation was that she wasn’t ready yet, and that she just wasn’t strong enough. Then as I was leaving, she was still trying to display that tight lip look, I turned at the door and looked back and said, “hey, don’t you smile now” and she did.
2 days later she wrote me an email and has ok’d my request to meet so that I can read her my letter. I’m thinking that she just wants me to get it over so that there is no longer anything I can request from her. But I since found out that she has lifted the block on our daughters face book so that she could contact me if she felt like it, but I don’t know if she knows yet?
I know she is secretly view my FB updates and has placed a few subliminal comments in the past few emails about meeting up.

Since the original offer to meet...I had a DB consultation and was advised to write my letter instead of doing anything in person...which was just sent last weekend.

That leaves me where I am....just waiting to see if there will be any reply to my effort, and continuing to work on me, my life and DB my ass off!