Lonely, Sad and No Communication

[LJC]

Someone mentioned on here that if I quit the FS it would be to little to late but surely it would be a step in the right direction? When W was at home I'm sure she felt trapped because she couldn't go out as and when she pleased because I was 'on call'

At the moment I'm monitoring the Sitch regarding the kids. W text me lastnite asking if I could have the kids Friday nite (because I'm due to have them Sat) i said I can't because I'm on call. This is a classic move by W, she thinks she's trying to do me a favour but she's thinking of herself and I've no doubt she has arranged another nite out (no mind reading needed here). But again what I'm saying is the FS has got in the way and its no doubt left her cursing it?

I really don't want to quit as in a way it's a GAL activity where I see the lads on drill nite and shouts etc but think it will help my Sitch if I do.

Regarding change. This might sound silly but how do I change? The whole Sitch has changed me, I've read and read, I've counciled etc but if she hasn't seen change what else can I do?

Oh one last thing - FIL came round lastnite which was unexpected. I was fearing the worst because normally he does W dirty work (well he did in W last R with her ex) but things were fine I asked about MIL because she had her appendix out while holidaying in Tenerife just after NYE. He reassured me I could go and see them as I was welcome and is still baffled by his Daughters actions etc. I said I've stopped the pursuing, begging, reasoning etc and I was giving her space and time but I was fearful that she will take the easy route and find OM rather than try to reconcile : ' ( he left on a good note and I was polite and friendly towards him which I'm sure will get back to W.

Thanks