Diving in with my eyes closed

[2chiquitos]

I have been so hesitant about posting on this forum. I worry that I'll jinx myself and tomorrow I'll be back on the newcomers forum.

So...I really don't want to give a summary. That's how fearful I am! I know, weirdo. It might even take me a while to post again here...

So quick quick summary. H said he wants to try. He said he is no longer involved with OW. I will always be the love of his life. He wants our family to be whole again. He wants me to have the strength to try also.

This confession of his came about because I told him I no longer wanted to try. I want us to live our lives separately. I wasn't angry or hurt or manipulative in my talk with him. I was very sincere.

After a couple weeks of this, I went back to reading After the Affair and realized that I need to allow myself to be vulnerable again ( ) if I want to work on us.

I was feeling tired at the thought of trying but now I feel re-energized again.

Much support needed.