I want him to be happy

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I wouldn't ask. You know that drill, depends on the moment you ask him what his answer will be. I almost asked my H again, even though he constantly says "well, I don't want to have to buy this, cause when I move back we'll have 2." It's like we want a guarentee. We'll never have one. You know that. Just try to live in the now and limit what things you discuss with your well meaning friends. They don't get it. It would be pressure.

How much do you tell your meaning friends about your stich? I need support especially from my best friend. She says she doesn’t want him hanging (She wants him to make all the decisions now) because it’ll hurt me more if he doesn’t. I’m actually thinking of having a heart-to-heart talk with my best friend because it actually stresses me out more than my R with my H to think I don’t have her support. I know she does whatever I decide but I can tell from her words and her expressions that she thinks I’m not over him even though he’s leaving. Um I am not and I will never be done with this M until it’s the end. Him leaving to me isn’t the end and apparently she doesn’t seem to see that way. She herself almost walked out on her H due to his alcohol problem last Spring, but decided to stay after he quit. She told me “I know you’d think it’s stupid but I’ve decided to stay” I said “Why would I think it’s stupid? I think it’s great” I was the only one out of her friends that told her to separate first and don’t file D while her other friends told her “It’s over, he’s not quitting, move on” It’s so wrong that we both think we wouldn’t be supportive of each other’s decisions/feelings. I think it’s time we talked.

Go for it!! Start up a new class, start running, weight lifting. A great book for starting a weight training program is The New Rules of Weight Lifting for Woman. Couch to 5k is awesome. I love ZukaLight. She use to be on the bodyrock tv (free internet interval workouts). I'm a firm believer in HIIT workouts for toning and building muscle.

Thanks for all the recommendations, I’ll definitely look into it.