Honestly, SM, no one here is beating you up...or even trying to. So many of us are getting over our own personal pains that we don't have the drive or desire to inflict any more on another person.
Rather, we are ALL seeing you sound alseep at the wheel of a Ferrari burning the road up towards a deep, deep cliff. We are trying to wake you up, SM....not put you down or berate you. When people STOP trying to help you - then worry.
