So it has been a few months since I posted here. A lot has changed. My W and I live seperatly now as I moved out a few weeks ago. She had planned a "girls" weekend out of state and I found out that she ended up sleeping over a guy "friends" house one of the nights. When I confronted her she did admit it but stood her ground in that nothing happened. Her excuse what that it was late and she did not want to take a cab ride (about 40 min) that late at night. I was not able to deal with that information in a contructive way and we ended up having a huge argument. In the end she said she wanted to get a divorce. The next morning she said that maybe we shoudl just live apart and not file anything legal for now...so I moved out. Its been about 3 weeks now and it has been a huge adjustment for me. I feel like I am in limbo as i dont know what our status is. I tried to ask and she just keeps saying that I am asking too many questions and she does not have the answers. SHe said she is going to take it one day at a time and whatever happens happens. She has shown no sign of trying to make anything better and has come across as just moving on without me. All of my friends are telling me to do the same and to get out and meet new people and friends. I am having a hard time letting go and moving on (although she seems to be doing just fine doing that). We see each other when I pick up or drop off the kids. I have my good days and my bad days. We are scheduled to go on a vacation that was planned months ago with our children. A part of me is telling me that I need to GAL and just move forward and not worry about what other people think. This is not easy but a part of me still wants this to work...I obviously still have strong feeling for her where she does not for me. I guess that is what makes it hard.
