FY, you made me smile when you called me "youngster." I give thanks to God every day, and I agree that it's important. Good to have the reminder.
I still feel I want to deal with my H in regard to the agreement/alimony instead of the L. I will bring this up to my coach (I scheduled an extra session for Friday.)
The L said my H is required to disclose all of his assets, including the $$ his grandmother gave him. I don't know. I feel that if I bring it up, our R will suffer. Isn't the whole point to have a harmonious R even during the D process?
Also, I'm not sure about giving him the present I had for his B-day. The coach said to give it to him, but I'm not sure. It's such a thoughtful present, and I don't think he deserves it. It all goes back to giving love regardless of whether the other person has earned it. Tough one.
I was reading my daily log of last year, and here are some of the entries around this time of the year, right after he moved out on 1/22/12:
"1/24/12 Feel better today. H called last night-said it was very hard and he missed me and loved me. We'll see. He has us together as an option. I just hope he doesn't take so long that I change my mind. 1/26/12 H said he was thinking about me and wondered what he was doing."
Similar entries all the way to 1/30/12. Then he said he wanted to date other women.
"1/31/12 I guess this year isn't much better than 2011. I had a hard time sleeping with all of this. Talking to H last night was stressful. Last night he said he wanted to be able to get to know a woman better if he wanted to and shouldn't miss on that and that he would think about what was best for him. I'm so hurt and disappointed."
Hasn't this been quite a ride? You're right, FY, I've put up with a lot. I'm sure all of us have.
Time for all of us to enjoy our lives the best we can, even while we go through this...
