Sorry for the late responds Excuse the typos most times my mind moves faster then my fingers. Yes i have been acting like a victim here i would rather do it here then to her. I know she gave me reason why she left me, but they are so trite. I do not except them.
I have been working on changing myself, I have had many great discussion with my therapist about myself and why I was who I was. I am coming to terms with that and I am understanding that i must be in the here and now rather than the there and then. This inability to stand up for myself has been something i have deal with my whole life. But not anymore I am learn to feel that sinking feeling and reacting to it.
I have been looking for a new job send out numerous resumes and have been to five interviews.
I am concerned for her, she continues more and more cosmetic surgery, i am worried about her...
