HI, Tori, Sorry your sickness is still lingering. And, sorry you are grappling with getting through things.
I understand how hard it is to get through "normal" things. I agree w ruby about trying to find good in the little things.
I also think you are doing a good job trying to do things differently (going to a new church) to help start your new chapter and where memories aren't lingering around every corner.
I think you should let your L negotiate your alimony. It keeps you from having to play that role. You have to do what's best for you.
I agree that you seem to have a strong intuition and should let that be a guiding force for you. God gave you that gift.
M- 18 T-21 S-14,11 & 10 BD 6-18-2012 (OW-EA) H moved out 11-3-2012 10-5-13 Me- I want a divorce. I want to move on w my life. 11-25-13 Jointly filed.