FY, and Ruby, thank you. Wish I could give you both a real hug :-)

Ruby, I completely agree that we must be aware, and by being aware, we can tap into the power of God, or the Universe, or whatever you may want to call it. Lucky people are just people who are aware.

Also, I'm going to reconnect with my intuition. I think I have a really powerful one. But I recognize I still fail sometimes, when the ego takes a hold of me.

My low moods are worsened by my physical health (still feel sick,) the freezing weather, and by spending a lot of time on my own (don't feel up to doing much, plus I don't want to get anyone sick.) But next week will be better.

I just sent an email to my L, asking him the questions that kept me up last night, and also to let him know the minimum I need to cover my expenses. My friend today told me to let the L negotiate the support amount with my H, but this sounds adversarial to me. I think it's best to negotiate this with my H directly (and it'll be a lot cheaper.) Thoughts??

In the past, I've been a horrible negotiator, maybe bc I always want to be nice and don't like people getting upset, so this will be a tough one. Maybe I should schedule a session with my coach to ask her how to approach this. I googled "negotiating alimony with your spouse" and nothing good came up.

Thanks again, FY and Ruby.