Thanks KML.. as always EVERYTHING you say is right on.
And amazingly, the more time I spend alone, the more I am accepting the fact that he is no longer the man I married, or who I know at all anymore.
I have requested that he go to Colorado and sort out his feelings for the OW and not to see me, or return home, until he is ready to either move on with repairing our marriage without her, or to file for divorce. I started clearing out our junk items today, we had an entire downstairs full of crap and I sorted it, also this means if I am unable to afford a place to stay, that I can move into the downstairs bedroom, with a bathroom attached, while we prepare for the house to be rented out or sold.
I am making an appointment with a lawyer next week, its the perfect time to do it and get things done. May even go ahead and file, seems like the perfect opportunity to do it anyway. I kind of feel vindictive and want to wait until he visiting her, and then have the papers sent to her house for him to get them.
Thats mean isn't it? Anyway... my life is one drama after the other.. but I am enjoying my time alone and taking the opportunity to work on what I want .
Its been a long road, and the journey is getting exhausting..
M-28 H-28 M-9 1/2 years T- 12 years PA- 01/02/12 (still going on)
