not sure where to go from here

[tiredndrained]

Thanks to everyone for all the responses and support!! It really helps me as I continue this lonely journey. Yesterday I as doing tax stuff and had to go back to all our last years bank statements. What an eye opener on all the charges and you can really see what someone has been up to just based on those alone.

Then, I found a box of receipts hidden away. Why he never threw this stuff out is beyond me but going through it I got a very clear and organized picture of the relationship with the OW. Jewelery, outings, trips overnight that I thought were for business. Then, to top it off, as I said all along I believed her to be trashy, I found a 6 pg arrest report that she was arrested last year for theft at a retail location. Really?? This is who he ruined our life and family for? It is so not him. I am so in shock by the entire thing. What a mess!! I may be losing my mind but what was the draw?

Well, just venting again. I didn't really look for this box but it made is all the more real again. Trying to stay focused. He went out all night and came back at 8AM. Said it was because I started an argument. I started the argument after he ran out when I came home yesterday at 3PM and by 9PM with two sick kids and I am on my 14 day straight of working and feel sick myself I texted him asking him where he was. In his mind aparently that is starting an argument.