finding my way

[littleGTO]

Tori,
I think H wants to keep his options open as long as he can. And, I don't think he will file until OW is free (not living w Ex).

He & my SIL talked recently (she is my biggest confidante) and she tried to instill some huge doubts in his mind about future w OW. Also, she asked him if he was guarenteed that his feelings for me were to return and he had to choose between me & OW who would he choose? He said me.

BUt he doesn't think it is possible that his feelings for me will ever return. And, I don't think they can either until/unless he decides to give her up. I don't think he can give her up until/unless he explores the R he has w her futher (changing from current EA to a PA). And, by that time I don't think I'll be waiting in the wings.

I am doing mind reading. I can't help it. Because I choose to be here for him should he ever see the light, I also ponder what the possibility of that happening is. Slim to none, I think.

I think this helps me to detach and to think about GAL things to do.

I need lots of rest as my energy level is very low. S9 and I are keeping each other company on the couches!