Update: My H finally emailed the bank statements. Nothing bad, just that he never deposited the $$ his grandmother sent for Christmas. I thought that might've been the reason he wasn't sharing the statements.
Emotionally, I've been better but I'm not at my worst. I started the cycle of crying every day, but at some point it'll stop. And if I can avoid the court altogether, I'll feel a little better. It'll be like the D didn't really happen. Avoidance? Definitely. But I don't care. Sometimes you do what you need to do to lessen the pain.
I've also been worried about the finances. My L told me the support I will receive will be less than I expected (and less than I need to cover my expenses,) so until I find a new job that pays better, it'll be tight financially. I can tap into my savings, which is what I'm planning on doing, and I also plan to switch jobs as soon as all of this D thing is over (and as soon as someone actually wants to hire me!)
