I phoned her this morning. I expressed to her that I wanted to apologize for my actions. I said that it was completely wrong of me to do something like that. I told her that she was indeed a wonderful mother and I apologiz for painting her in a negative light. I said that everything I said was literally me being mad at the situation, nothing to do with her. I asked how it made her feel, and she said that it hurt her deeply. From that point, I validated, validated, validated and more.
I had a discussion with her regarding the breakdown in our trust with each other and out lack of of communcation. She expressed the same feelings as I did. I validated, validated and mirrors her feelings. Before we ended, I asked is she would like to work with me so that we could rebuild some trust. She seemed inclined to work on it, but said it would take time and she would never be able to fully let go of the hurt I have given her