You know i am just doing some reflecting on things today, Not sure why but it is ok.
Looking back I can truly see how my W began to in her own mind villainize me. To make me the bad Guy so it was easier for her to leave. Up to a point everything she tried to say to make me the bad Guy was well turned around on her. I never gave her the proff that she needed. Until that one day. I found her passwords to all her accounts. She found them buy looking in my Stuff ( she was looking to see what money I had as I know she was broke that day and needed gas. I was always good to her and gave her all she wanted. But when she found the list of passwords well that was all the pruff she needed to say to herself and friend she what he did and does to me.
I'm not sure if this one thing is what is hard for her to get past. But i do feel it is the one thing she cant let go of. the trust. Also for some reason she thinks I was following her. that was told to me by her mom. I never did it never even thought about it. But I know she had this problem in the past with her other ex's. They tracked her miles on her car. I never cared what she was doing until the one day i caught her in a lie.. she did feel bad and was very sorry but it still put a lack of trust in everything as I did with her.
So that is my reflection. I still pray we will R but God only knows if we will or not.
