thinking of you being in same house and interacting all the time w your not-h - as usual- i think being apart isn't good- but it's sure hard as heck being in same old house where i "used to" live too. it's icky- things are the same- but not at all the same.
too many memories - good and then those few bad.
i don't even want toallow myself to go down the fond ole memory road- too dangerous to even think of it all. i guess i'm still just trying inside to wean myself away from this all - from not-h.
it's like a bad bad addiction - i think of people who smoke and drink and how very hard it is to quit. i'd probably never be able to do it- tho with h i'm going to have to. this addiction isn't good for me or making me happy - it's going to have to go in the end i believe.
how and when one gets to that point- quitting thru sheer will power- i don't know. oh well- i'm sure aa would tell me not to get ahead of myself- one day at a time huh.
anyway- that's what's up here. baby is napping- she's sure alot of energy. she's smart tho- told her get the nap out of the way so we can play- so she is.
was nice to see & chat with my neice and newest baby (year in easter - sure went by fast). he's so smiley & cute. oh mannnn
