You are both absolutely right. I do not know why I am harboring so much anger towrds her. Well, I do. It angers me that she had made this decision that will effect my life, and my daughters whole world, for the rest of our lives. She is leaving a wake of destruction behind her and letting her burning bridges light her path to "happiness". It makes me angry that I am now in charge of an entire families stability and support, while she is running off to start her "new life", simply because she doesn't want to work on the old one. It makes me angry that she "wants to be friends", but only on her terms. It makes me angry that out of the blue, lastnight my D said to me that she was sorry that Santa Clause didn't bring me a present or anything for my stocking. I don't know about other people, but those things really make me angry. I do not know how to change that. I would like to change it. How do I start?
What do I do at this point? Do I aplogize and give my reasoning for the text? Do I just let it be? Do I simply apologize and say nothing more?
Again, I feel that my whole wish to reconcile was once again crushed. Given the circumstances surrounding our separation, and granted all the of the harmful things I have done, it would take an act of God to turn her feelings around at this point.
