The ups and downs of DBing

[Wendylon]

I'm glad that you, LJC, Tallula and Tori found the article useful. You're right, labug, I am in a controlling space.

I've just read the article in detachment again and yet I'm still finding it so hard to detach from my H's behaviours these past few days. I don't know if it's hormonal or what but I keep getting drawn in to focusing on him negatively. I can feel myself really backsliding. I asked him tonight if he'd been drinking again. It was silly of me. He claimed not but I'm not sure... He forgot to pick D15 up from her piano lesson. He's a space cadet and it drives me mad--especially at the moment.

Then again, he's planning to take D15 to her netball game tomorrow and is bringing S13 along with him. I would never volunteer to do that. I would see it as much too effortful.

I feel so incredibly critical and suspicious of him. It's eating away at me. I owe it to myself to stop focusing on him. It feels beyond my control though.