What if this is as good as it gets ????

[trainthruhell]

Sunny:

I agree. I FEEL for you man I really do, but take some breaths. Quit beating yourself up over things you have done or not done in the past, you can't change them and you need to move forward. I did not say "move on" (which you may have to do anyway), but "move forward" - work on yourself and take care of little sunny. The only thing you can control is your reaction to things that happen. You are on a tightrope and every so often you'll lose balance and fall off. It's OK, just dust yourself off, get back on, and learn from the experience, however, don't beat yourself up over it - Move Forward!

You really think just because you became upset and vented at her she decided that this was it. You're on the crazy train and you are not driving.

You are in a personal crisis, I would suggest a therapist for just you, weekly if not more until this sitch subsides or you can deal with it from strength. Therapy should be focused on you, not the marriage. You need to mend you.