jzoom you have to detach ASAP. Is this how you want to live your life? I'm not trying to be disrespectful to you but you aren't even her spouse and whether you want to believe it or not being married makes a big difference. I'm sorry to say this but try and look at it from her perspective. She hasn't made any commitment to you and you aren't the father of her children. Seriously think about that from her point. Quite a few of us can tell from just reading your posts that she is done with you but you keep going back for more. Why?
Let her go and just face the facts that she doesn't want to be with you at this time. You aren't even giving her time to miss you. I can assure you that she hates you contacting her all the time. Leave her be or she will definitely be gone forever and then you really have no one to blame but yourself.
M 44 W 43 S 23 S 15 INILWY 9/11 Divorce Mediation started 3/13 June 30 the day W is moving out