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I posted to you a while back and it seems things aren't much better for you.

Well I have had progress and set backs, in the mist of this last set back I remembered I could come here and post. So here I am.. trying to push through it all.

What are you doing for yourself?

I've started working out and I have joined a few meet ups to meet new people. My whole life was surrounded about being his wife and him. So, so far so good. There are just some really hard days, especially since I saw him that day. It just put me back to square one.

Did you go to AlAnon?

I have not as of yet. I've found myself picking up that bad habbit as well as a way to numb the pain. The interesting thing is that it has lead me to wonder what pain is he trying to drown out. But again I need to focus on me, I tend to always go back and try to figure him out and I need to focus on me.

You do sound desperate and clingy. I know these are difficult times but that surely won't get him to notice you.

Yes you are right and I have realized that. I do consider myself to be a pretty strong independent person, but when it comes to him I am desperate and clingy. I feel like he's the love of my life and I can't imagine being with anyone else. I've even been on a few dates but I find myself just saying I don't want this, I want my H back.

Have you read CoDependent No More? It might be helpful.

No but I will pick it up. My counselor suggested that I read Boundaries so I'm doing that work now.