google emotional abuse stosny, it might be helpful.

Your H wanted to have sex and wanted a baby but in no way was mature enough for that responsibility. And the pressure started.

Again, not your fault, he made choices.

You will come out of this in a much better place.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss