I ended the PA before I was confronted by H. Not had a bit of contact since. It was a huge mistake on my part.
Had appt with attorney yesterday to find out what happens next. I cried the entire way home. I love my H, but if we go thru the entire process and the hell of it, I'm not sure what will be left of me to give. He has told friends that he still loves me, but he needs closure (revenge) in order to move forward. I know, one day at a time. I just don't know how much longer I can be the doormat.
God won't give me more than I can handle. I've quit try to plan and just let it happen. I will deal with it as it comes.
I've read DR 10 times...listening to KLA all the time...I'm giving the gift of time...I know I'm rambling, but it helps to keep me sane...
Me 46/H 48 M 19/T 20 D 21 Away at College D 17 PA 9/12 H left 10/23/12
