Soul.Searching my way back.

[Soul.Searching]

Thanks FM (Sorry thought I had a post in between but it's not there!!! )
Honestly not much would suprise me these days lol.
Thanks AS, I try not to let him know it gets to me but it still does.
Thanks Bug. I can see things a lot more clearer these days.
I'm struggling with why I let him treat me like that? Why I failed to enforce boundaries. I could never ever go back to a R like that.
That's what hurts so much. He couldn't change and be a better person for me but it seems like he is for OW.

He called twice today. Once he still had a crappy tone, the second he was asking me for a favour and was all nice. It was just me helping him carry something to the car, so I said yes.
He came but it had started pouring rain (Crazy, Crazy weather here lately. Hot, cold, fires, storms and floods!) he asked me to go with him to pick the kids up.
My umbrella was in my car but H had his (Wow, H actually uses umbrella!!! )
So he held his over both of our heads and walked me to my car door and stood there while I got in. Then he went to the other side and got it. He is so like two totally different people in one. He seemed very indifferent towards me.

He was telling me how he is grounding OWs daughter from having friends over for two weeks because she was bugging OW when she is sick and then she hung up on him. What kind of people are they ?
It seems way too soon for H to be punishing her children. Oh well none of my business.

I was also thinking about S8's birth lastnight. H was yelling at me and abusing me while I was in labour because he got home from work and I'd been so inconsiderate because I had used all the hot water, trying to ease my pain. Pffft


Dummy spitting arse face.