Darlin', you're human. And if you were a newbie here I'd have all kinds to say, but I know you've already said it all to yourself wink

The truth is ... we feel. And the only way through it is to feel it. Feel it. Acknowledge it. Forgive yourself.

Light that wood fire, make a tea and do what makes you feel better ... including cry if you need to. Then let it go.

Love you! And happy birthday honey ... it may not feel like the best day ever, but it sure beats the alternative wink

Peace
PEI

Holding onto anger to punish someone else, is like lighting yourself on fire to get smoke in their eyes ~ 25yearsmlc