When tapestries of life get tangled in the loom.

[Big Bruce]

So anywayz,
I was refering to the unspoken deal we make at marriage, about being there for each other, in good or bad. At the first difficulty, it got shattered like as if we were just seeing each other, there's a child now, I mean... Yes I recognize it was hard for her, but like divorcing was gonna help.

And by the way, we didn't say any vows at all. For me, my yes is yes, I needn't promise things to make sure I'll stick to the marriage.

But 25SMIC is right in one thing : W believes I was wasteful & selfish with money. SHE believes I ignored HER AND our son. SHE believes I was not going to help her raise my son.
--> THEREFORE my mission is simple : break those assumptions by being all the contrary.

- For one I'm in court proceeding because I want more time with my son. This shows I want to take care of him.
I understand it must have been difficult becoming a mother for the first time . Now that it is the past, the only thing to do is try to be a good dad.

- Second, all the letters and change of attitude towards W should prove to her that I won't take her for granted anymore.

- Third, money wise, if she had concerns, after what's happening, she must know that I am more than willing to be open about it. Plus I have shown lots of restrain and thriftiness since I arrived. She can't still think I can be extravagant about it.
Should I get a mortgage and buy a house? Seriously, that'll show her my priority is to get settled and be a family man.

The reason why I believe things can only go better now, is because when I don't write her an email I don't feel the urge to. I don't feel the need to convince her anymore. I'm a changed person, and if she decides not to give me another chance, loss is hers. She's fallen her pedestal, I see her as a girl who truly thought marriage was going to be with romantic prince all her life, and three years in the marriage realizes that reality has kicked in.
The husband is not perfect, sorry, the husband $uckz, and the grass looks greener being divorced.

I feel sympathetic. She doesn't know what she wants in life. She was unsatisfied, still is unhappy, and I cannot be responsible for making her happy. Too heavy for me to carry.

All I can do now, is promise to myself to not let her down a second time if I'm given the chance. She is still in time to make that choice, my door is still open, it will stay always open in fact. I will focus on my son, that's a challenge in itself. I said what I could, I did what I could, Her call now..

Good evening,
B.