finding my way

[littleGTO]

Today...
Well, from DBing standards this would probably be considered a backslide, but to be honest I don't think I have anywhere to go except forward.

I emailed my H today for the first time since the beginning of January. I simply said, "Emailing you just to say hello. I miss talking to you. I miss us."

I figure it can't do any damage. I am hardly pursuing. It's been over a month since we've really talked about anything other than kids. And, I really wonder if he's starting to question where my head is..

...because one day I said, "I might be meeting w someone today and he said, "Who?"

I said, "I don't know if I will be or not," but it wasn't anything I wanted to share w him.

Later that day he asked if I had a meeting...I said "no."

Then the next night I talked to him on the phone & said I had something I wanted to talk w him about. He said, "Is it bad news." I said, "Well, good & bad, I guess."

It was all about setting up a FC appointment for kids. I'm quite sure he thought I contacted a L and was going to let him know.