this is all great... I wanna keep talking about forgiveness because it's really an important part of my life currently....
but just to tangent for a sec .....
My car is a P.O.S... and today it overheated... so that's going to be added to the other things that I've been procrastinating getting fixed (with my mechanic)....
... or not.
I've wanted a white soft top jeep for sometime now. I'm going to look Saturday morning.
The heart is such a weird thing. This car has SOO many good memories. I was with xw when she bought it. we had been together only 5 months.
I've lost quite a few things from my D. My furniture, my other car, my two kittens... I even accidentally broke a few coffee cups that she bought me. Each time..I have cried. Struggling to let go.. as if things were the ONLY thing I have left from my past life.
What's new... is that I don't feel this with "Trooper". I will be sad to see her go. She 's been through so much and there are SO many good memories.
But I'm not finding a reason to hang on. I thinking practically vs emotionally. There is no internal battle except what is financially best.. getting a new car vs. fixing her AGAIN.
A jeep is exciting! It'll be the 1st car that's mine really. One that I get to chose.
I shouldn't actually say a jeep caz I don't know if I can afford it... but MAN I WANT ONE SO BAD!!!!!
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
