I posted to you a while back and it seems things aren't much better for you.

What are you doing for yourself?

Did you go to AlAnon?

You do sound desperate and clingy. I know these are difficult times but that surely won't get him to notice you.

Have you read CoDependent No More? It might be helpful.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss