Journaling: H came into the kitchen and invited me to watch an afternoon movie w/him. Hell, it's 10 degrees out so I agreed, also trying to be approachable safe person for him to reach out to. It's my way of keeping the door cracked open a little.
Literally 15 min into the movie something in the story rang true to how he feels and he flipped a switch. Paused the movie and began to explain how his mind just flipped and he's pissed off. It's Rise Of The Planet Of The Ape's for heaven sakes, I thought that would be a safe bet, he chose it.
As he put his head in hand, I removed myself and went about my business. He is still watching the movie alone and my S just asked what species was the other ape, in passing. H replied, ''I forgot they were apes...I wasn't even seeing them as apes anymore, omg''!
He's sitting there projecting!
I will go about my work as usual and let him stew. It's a shame really, he was good for about an hour, even talking to S gf for a min. He needs a C w/meds.
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
