not sure where to go from here

[tiredndrained]

I agree Dawnmarie. I feel isolated from everyone I spoke to bc no one is on the same page as me about it. I know I told too many people and I highly regret it. I always feel like people judge me even though that probably isn't the case.

My H being nice again and we are back on the same rollercoaster ride as before. I am staying detached though for my own sanity. I am so tired. I am not sure I have the ability to feel any love right now anyway so if he leaves tomorrow I don't think I would care. He says he is leaving but waiting til he has a job. We'll see. I don't see that happening but hopefully once he gets a job things will change one way or the other. Thanks for listening!!