Wow, have things changed

[Tallula]

So, pretty sure today is the day. Last night we watched a movie & just held each other before we fell asleep. I still know in my heart that we need to S. H said he is so ripped apart, but he keeps telling himself that if he stays he will ruin our M, and if he goes we can save it. For me, I feel the same way. We both need space, it's going to be hard though. And my boundries wont change. The past few weeks he had started being more present and our interactions were mostly positive, which makes it hard, but I'm glad we are starting this from a good place.

I'm keeping the kids most of this weekend so he can get settled in. But I have my next weekend all planned. Going to buy new comforter & redecorate my bedroom. Start a char coal drawing of my kiddos, and prime my kitchen cabinets...sooo excited to paint them & get new hardware!!

Ugh, just tell me it will get better. The thought of coming home to some missing furniture is starting to really upset me.