Wow, this thread just spins me out. You were the WAS, he gave up and left you alone. You tell him you want a D, when what you really wanted was to R??

He most likely will not make the first move. He probably thinks you don't care about him anymore.

If you want him back you need to put your big girl panties on and own up to your mistakes. Maybe a letter or email. You need to let him know you want to work things out.

You need to make sure it's what you want though it's not fair on him if you R, only for you to turn around do the same thing all over again in six months.

You clearly have issues that you need to get to the bottom of or your doomed to keep reliving this over and over again. You said you have kicked you H out every six months and have done that with all of your previous R.

No one will chase you forever, when your treating them like that.
It sounds like you don't think you deserve love. Is that correct? If so, why do you think that is?

M: 29, H: 31
D: 9
S: 8
T: 13 Y
M: 9 Y
ILYBIDKIILWY 12/09/2012
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Worrying does not empty tomorrow
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