Lonely, Sad and No Communication

[Lampstand]

In my case, my inability to say "I'm in trouble, help me" to my H is because I was SEVERELY abused in childhood and teen years. So the "inner child" feels like a victim and to me it's an INJUSTICE to have to admit my wrongdoing in anything. I'm still waiting for my perpetrators to be held accountable. Of course, this has NOTHING to do with my M or my H. That's the problem in my sitch.

So that's why I say it really isn't my H or the M that makes me unhappy. And until I'm ready to admit my guilt and take responsibility for the bad I've done to my H (and others for that matter) then the M cannot stand.

I don't want to have to face myself. It's ugly. But I have to whether the M survives or not.