T^2 you're totally right. He was too shy, too self conscience in his teens. Now he is living like he is the big man on campus. Fantasy world meet reality. I'm hanging. I don't like it, but I'm doing it anyway.
I hope OWs show true colors, but at least two of them seem satisfied with mere attention. There is one is the wild card who could start making demands. But doesn't make sense that he would honestly give into them when he doesn't care enough to make her his only.
He is back to "talking" in depressing song again and I always feel like he is trying to talk to me or at least engage me when he does this. I don't think it's possible he realizes how much he hit the nail on the head with the last series, where the underlying theme is that the sins of the father are visited on the son and that this person is messed up because of his parents. Also that it's not going to stop until you face it and deal with it. And finally a plea to be saved. Just random songs? It doesn't feel like anything is random anymore.
Sunny you proved you are human. That is what is so hard for me right now. H is an alien, but I feel like I am one too. It's not natural to hold all this in. It [censored]. Holding it in can hurt just as much as the pain of the betrayal. And it may not even make any difference. You love too much. You care too much. You feel too much. Those are qualities we all want from someone. How can anyone think anything but admiration for that?
M38,H39 M:16Y BD:8/12 OWDB:11/12 S:11/12-5/13 "Temp" home:6/13 OW dropped:9/13 "I love you":12/13 H ring on:2/14 Depression back:5/15 "I'm done:" 7/15 H moved out: 3/16 H moved back: 12/16 Working on us: 3/17
