Confused beyond belief

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oh wow your post gave me instant hope! I was actually in the middle of ivf when my H reached his breaking point. We were arguing and my hormones must have been out of control with the meds. After his blowup, we made up and continued ivf half way: successful frozen embryos. Leading up to D, I have to admit I was always thinking about when I’d able to put the embryos back in while my H was still so sad and confused. I shouldn’t have rushed that we had successfully frozen them but I was cynical. I only focused on negatives: What if these don’t work? Now I think about it I think my H was always open to the idea of adoption if we can’t naturally get conceived. But me? When my Dr mentioned I might have to use egg donors (before surgery) I was beyond sad I’m not gonna lie. I didn’t necessary think it was a bad thing for me to want to have biological babies if I could, but I think it was bad I didn’t explore any other options. So to my H, how helpless he must have felt. Here I was always down about babies. But at that time I was only thinking about me. Why can’t he be more supportive of my pain? How unfair of me it was. He was trying to find out why he wasn’t happy and yet his wife had to drown him with emotions he couldn’t possibly handle.

Sorry I hijacked it a bit but it’s so nice to hear success stories from ladies in my age group. It’s so comforting, so thank you for that.