Separated, in different states....

[Lampstand]

My focus the past few days has been trying to figure out if I am the WAW or the LBS. The lifelong pattern is for me to be the WAW. I've done this before to other men and to my H. He left this time because I told him to. It's not my MO to leave my home--I prefer to make the man leave. It gives me more control.

So I guess going dark and being distant and GAL and being independent is NOT what I should be doing? I did reach out to him through IM and he was very receptive. He was upset by GAL type statements I made. They weren't very nice either.

Here's what I'd like to tell him:

- I made a mistake when I said I didn't want to be with you anymore.
- I want to keep our M because I love you and want to continue a life with you.
- I've not been a good W to you and I'm very unhappy with myself about that.
- I need some time and space to figure out how to be a better wife.
- During that time I'd like to have contact with you that is happy and positive.
- When we are both ready I'd like you to come back home for good.

Comments???????????