The ups and downs of DBing

[Wendylon]

Thank you v much, Tori and Rkyfat, for your great advice.

You both emphasised the importance of him feeling good around me. Sadly, I think I'm backsliding under the pressure of his annoying behaviour.

H is 'sick' which never goes v well. What he calls 'sick', I call needing to take a couple of paracetamols. He cancelled a training session at the last minute yesterday (thereby having to pay for it anyway). I knew he had one booked for today too so suggested he cancel it. He got angry and said I treat him like a fu**ing moron. Sure enough, he cancelled it at the last minute today and was pissed off with the trainer for not being sympathetic enough. Said the guy had a shelf life. I was thinking that H is the one with a shelf life. I mentioned that that trainer finds it hard to charge when people cancel which is why his text seemed abrupt. H then lashed into me about how I'm always right and would I just shut up and go and enjoy being right. I just went on doing my own thing.

He then said he had a lot of stuff to do and didn't want to talk about any of it because it would just make him angry.. I bit my tongue because he actually had extra free time because of cancelling his session. In fact, that may be why he cancelled his session: to catch up on reports. He's gone to a meeting.

I'll see him at parents' evening at D15's school. I sort of wish he were too sick to go. Right now I feel frustrated with him. I find him self-centred, immature and extremely unappealing. BDing energy is at an all-time low

I'm sure you are right, Rkyfat, that H is angry at me when he is angry at himself. He must be angry at himself a lot. I would be too if I managed my life the way he does.