The above link might get you upto speed but for now I just wanted to put my Sitch out there. I've been posting on other threads and trying to keep the positive vibe going but when it comes to me I'm just struggling to keep my head above water.
She continues to live in a separate rented house with my kids while I live in the family home. Maintainence payments have been sorted so she gets money for food etc on a weekly basis and I have given her dates till then end of March when I can have access to the kids. I work Mon-Fri and also do night cover for the fire service which ties me up on week days so I alternate seeing them on Sat/Suns. My devotion to fire service is one of her bug bears and it is a big commitment. She was always moaning that I did to much round 'the station' but when we separated she said she didnt want me to give it up.
What is really upsetting me is the lack of communication from her. Texts are only about the kids and when I take the kids 'home' she doesn't even come to the door! My mum sees more of her because she looks after S3 on Mondays while W works PT. Monday 28th W had a very minor road accident with S3 in the car where she skidded on some Ice and spun her round which really shook her up and when she got to my mums house she was in a state, very emotional and they talked about various things, sometimes thru tears and at one point got onto R talk where W said we could get back together but a year down the line we would be back to square one poss in a worse state. What does this mean do you think? Is it a good sign that she's thinking about it?
You wouldn't believe how this has changed my life (as you know)and have been GAL (Gym, Decorating House, Setting Focus points, Signing up for an online computer course, doing 'something' with the kids so they go back and talk about it), indentifying 180's and reversing them, being positive out in public, always looking my best when I step out the front door, no pursuing, phone calls or texts to W (unless its about kids). So why can't she identify that I have changed? because I fear the reason she is being so dark is that there is OM altho this hasn't been comfirmed Its just a hunch.
Like I say Im struggling to come to terms with all this and the 14 weeks since BD really feels like 2/3 years! Do you think I should put together an email/text message just to remind her im still here? (silly thing is I think I know the answer to this lol!)
Love you guys, you really help others on here but man I could do with some right now as Im really battling the loneliness! Thanks
M - 37 W - 35 T - 11 M - 5.5 SD13 D10 S4 ILYBINILWY 15 Oct '12 Moved out 7 Dec 12 At present - Being the best dad i can be.
