Well from what I can see you are doing what I am doing. Your focus is not on you and the kids it is on her...spying on her and trying to figure out how you can convince her that you appreciated her etc....is not going to bring her back and it is not going to make you feel good...we have all made mistakes don't beat yourself up so much for it...Just a guess but I am sure she did not appreciate you all the time either... I wonder if you should not go dark from her for a while might help you detach a little more and put W on her heels a little bit...
